Finally Broken I never really liked me Most days I hate how I look And that reflects how I feel From the hairs on my head To the toes on my feet I’m told how handsome I am But that means nothing to me I can’t stop judging myself So I watch what I eat I exercise everyday Cause in my mind I am weak And it just builds up inside Until there’s no place to go You say an eating disorder more like existence disorder Each time I’m leaving the shower I see my hair in the drain It won’t stop thinning on top While on my face it turns gray These are the thing that I see All the stuff that’s wrong with me And now that’s just on the surface as my depression just worsens You see I tell all my friends That I wish I was dead And though it seems like a joke I have it planned in my head But one day it will come When I actually do it Forgive the choice that I make I have to stop all this pain It’s not just my appearance That I hate about me I hurt the ones that I love Because the ego I feed A self destructive life cycle That I can’t seem to shake Over and over again I need to seal my fate I’ll start cry for no reason Then I give myself one Remember times that I had With someone who is now gone Never to see them again And I miss everyone This happens too many times How fucking often I cry When I wake up tomorrow That’s when the nightmare begins It’s this fucking mundane routine That has me going insane You know I feel so worthless that there’s nothing to gain Tomorrow, tomorrow repeat It’s all the fucking same There was a time when I could hide this Before I met you, but then you showed me the type of person, it’s created I don’t know if I was better off that way I had armor I was confident I was able to ignore the things wrong in me I’m never happy I’m always working Distracted and starving This feeling is blinding, I can only see the ugly inside me And the outside reflects my inside I don’t know who it is looking back at me Tired and weak I check my phone everyday I hope to see you pop up Just to know your okay If I can’t be there for you It makes me feel like shit I wish my brain would just stop But my heart it won’t quit I keep on filling my schedule To keep me constantly busy If I don’t have to think Then there’s no time to hurt This candle burns at both ends With a wick in the middle We used to love the hot wax But now its just a sad lyric Being stripped of emotions That sounds like heaven to me Never to feel again Or have you haunting my dreams No more inferior complex No more pain in my life No more love and devotion FUCK MY HEART WITH A KNIFE

Disguise it’s what I always wear Any place I ever go I can never share I gotta hide who I am from most people They will never understand and how I feel Too weird to live, too rare to die. X4 I’m not enough of this to fit in with that And I’m not enough of that to fit in with this There’s no place a creature me What they call un human being Too weird to live, too rare to die. X4 It’s sad world and everybody’s fucked We all got different problems And we’re outa luck I only share who I am with select few Some are dead and the others you Are you a creep Are you a creep Are you the creepy type You know we’re all getting sick of the Rat Race History it repeats every dam day And they ask you every time you know the routine We all know the fucking dam line “living the dream’ Too weird to live, too rare to die every time I say it I die little more inside Sometimes I wish I could share this hell with another But I don’t want to fall in love FUCK Love It’s a weakness it’s the shortest straw Too weird to live, too rare to die A lot of days I wanna end this Is it worth it Short circuit I always try and look at things on the brighter side So here’s some good news everybody dies Are you a creep Are you a creep Are you the creepy type

I can live FOREVER without you WITHOUT ANYONE But why would I IT WASN’T MY CHOICE ever want to THAT YOU LEFT HIM HERE I’m chasing something that’s much faster (Is she really) I run and run and run but I never get any closer (You never will) I should know by now ( You really should) I should quit ( But you never quit anything) Just like a dream I feel the weight pushing me down down- (Underground) You’re outa my reach (So far away) I can’t even speak (The Silence screams) Lips move with nothing coming out (Not a word) My face is drained My hearts the same I feel this way (Empty inside) Every god damn day (It’s too much) What’s the point now (Tell me please) Why exist (Why anything) I don’t know anymore (You don’t know shit) Everythings estranged (So distant) But too me (You were everything) What made sense was you (At least to him you did) I know they say that time is suppose to heal all wounds But the more time goes on the more that seems like bullshit to me A day feels like a week a week feels like a month And ever year feels like 1000 And their all just miserable I’m not going to let that stop me And I’m not going to act how I feel around others But really I can’t wait for this shit to be over Over and over again I’ll torture myself Over and over again I’ll torture myself Everything is just fucked up (It always is) In my head (You’re not alone in there) I’ve closed all the doors (Locked the windows too) And I’ve shut everyone out (Isolate) I hurt myself (Oh yes) Oh I hurt myself (That’s right he does) It’s not enough for me (Do you see) I need to cut to the bone- (To feel) pull my skeleton out (Hello fiend) And set him free (Run rabbit run) No guts no organs no meat (No soul) Just me (How it has to be) I’ve closed my eyes I can see I can see) I see nothing (That I’m going blind) I’ve opened my eyes (I can see I can see) I see nothing (That I’m going blind)

I want you alone I want to feel you… Deep deep down… quite now I’ll show you, is this love or lust Does it even, matter All know is you’re an angel, but tonight We play like devils raise hell raise me up to go down silver tongue splash as we twist and turn our flesh is one Slip in slide out fluid motions Tied down restrained Domination I could die tonight Right here in you I’ve never felt anything better before This euphoria I get from you Just takes me to another world I could die tonight Right here in you I never touched any flesh better then yours This euphoria I get from you Just takes me to another world Oh you drive me mad But it feels just right Now close your eyes This will be the best night Of our lives Theres something about you I can’t resist When our lips touch That kiss of death It brings me life Pushing deeper moving forward Tongue across your neck I sink my teeth in to your Skin I could die tonight Right here in you I’ve never felt anything better before This euphoria I get from you Just takes me to another world I could die tonight Right here in you I never touched any flesh better then yours This euphoria I get from you Just takes me to another world

Hello beautiful I know it’s been a while (To long) But I’ve really missed you (More then you know) Things just haven’t been the same Since you left (Shits changed) And I needed to see you (So badly) Me? I’m doing alright (Just fine) But I’m here to talk about you (And only you) How you doin, we’ve you gone, watchuv seen? (Tell me everything) Is there somebody else now? (Who is he) Is he handsome is he strong is he like me (Not likely) Or just another distraction (Most likely) I’m so sorry no, that’s not my business (Not at all) But I wish I could change that (You know I do) You we’re right leave and feel so angry (So angry) I should have told you the whole truth (Not hide and seek) You are more then all the others I’ve collected (It’s the truth) Because I actually loved you (More then you knew) Do you share your secrets? Or do you keep them all to yourself? You never thought that I’d find out But I did Now it’s to late to feel bad For what you’ve done You never thought that I’d find out But I did Now it’s to late to feel bad For what you’ve done Oh you have no idea what’s coming to you I wish knew everything about you (But no) But some things you just refused to share (You’ve had secrets) I can understand your feelings and your lack of trust (It’s been Hard) But maybe that was the problem (You were betrayed) Sometimes I move to fast for my own good (That was my fault) All emotions are new to me (I never felt before) I’ve never loved in the way we did at first glance (Not once) That’s how I knew your so special (My one true love) I’ll Never let you go, walk away, or turn your back (Please stay) We made a fucking commitment (You are all mine) Through the good times (Yes) and the hard ones (Aaahh) You won’t regret my decision (Signed in our Blood) Ill keep you close, hold you down, And and give ur heart life (Life) You are my sweetest perversion (Like candy) That look of terror in your eyes when your breathe stopped (Your fear) You were my final connection (Goodbye my love)

I don’t know why she told me she loved me Or that I actually believed her I know she’s talking to other guys Instead of paying attention to me Maybe there’s something wrong with me Now she says he wants to marry me I wonder how many others she’s said that to But it feels great when she holds me close Maybe if I wait she’ll change But it’s stupid to think that right? I told her I saw the pictures Then she just got angry and stormed off I just wanted to know why I wasn’t enough she still tells me how handsome I am Only now I don’t believe her I want to give her another chance Because I think she would do that for me she did it again he fucking lied Abusive piece of fucking shit x4 Yell and cry all you want I’m leaving this time And I’m NOT coming back I don’t care if you’re getting help You had your chance x2 Abusive piece of fucking shit x1

I don’t sleep much Not as much as I should Our mind it never shuts off And I don’t talk much not compared to the past We’ve got nothing to say I’m alone almost every single night Except when she needs attention But we like it that way Just once could I please turn the voices off They keep repeating themselves I’m not enjoying this life that I live Oh no I’m just killing time Oh yes I’m just killing time You didn’t have to pretend You didn’t have to pretend You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me to fuck me You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me to fuck me to fuck me You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me to fuck me to fuck me Now I don’t give a fuck about anything I’m just jaded inside When’d this happen to us I’m not allowed to be happy My brain will punish me That’s enough for you I am force to live inside the grey Between happy and sad We have nothing to give And the drugs the drugs They only hide my pain Until it’s time to go Oh where is my guardian angel Thats right he fucking died We miss you everyday Its like ocean of misery And I can’t stop breathing it in You didn’t have to pretend You didn’t have to pretend You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me to fuck me You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me to fuck me to fuck me You didn’t have to pretend that you liked me to fuck me to fuck me

Every floor holds it’s memory Each crack that runs across Is filled with our blood and tears Our names are carved in the hardened old wood Still, sounds of the blacked out screams So clutch tight to feed me your pain Irrational, anger, undeserved from a coward All the colors has now been drained To be scene are just shades that stray The smell of smoke is the only thing left And a hole that can never be filled There’s a void that’s left from you Evil thoughts grow stronger an just consume No light at the end of this tunnel No rope to climb up out Just Hopeless, loveless, existence Just Hopeless, loveless, existence So Hopeless, and loveless, this existence “Chorus” Will I ever wake from this nightmare Will the pain ever stop I can’t keep going on I can’t keep living like this My eyes are open but nothings to see Our flesh is a curse just surface no substance That needs to be removed Your life is pouring, out of my skin And now the clock has stopped I Retrace the steps, and outline the pain This sickness, the sorrow It’s the end fuck tomorrow Who you met was just a dream A sharp blades caress And a final tear To be loved by you again Even if I won’t be here